lala#

so im having a lazy weekend in. laying on the coach, snuggled in my blanket, eating warm pancakes & better yet my parents arent home :) but ive had alot of problems during this week. i know i go on and on about all my problems but this is the only place where i can write about how i feel. how can my own mum say she wished i was dead? if she wanted me dead so bad why dont she kill me her self? argh ive lost most of my friends just cos of some boy i likED. yeah its all about ;

from being -

-strangers to

- friends to

-more than friends then to

- strangers again.

HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUH im so confused =S every single thing i try todo fails.everyone expects me to be something im not . it so hardd cos noone really understands me. BUT im lucky to have REAL friends that i think ill never lose no matter what . i love you guys :))

bleh #

well today has been so annoying for me. its like i wanna hit someone but i cant.

-my dad kept bugging me

- my lil bro kept nagging

-i felt like crying my eyes out but i knew i couldnt i had to keep fighting. like being a teen is so much harder than being a child. - innocent - cute - happy. but now its like everythings turned into a nightmare. ever since ive became older, my parents seem to become more protective - like they wouldnt let me do anything. my little brother brings me pain too , everytime i tell him something he goes making it a big deal. like telling the whole world. argh he's one of those kids who arent innocent.& today, well today i feel so ukk. what does a girl do when she tells a boy how she feels about him, but asks him not to tell anyone about it, he promises not to tell a soul & cause she likes him sooo much she believes him.but then he still goes telling people like it was okay. what is she todo? argh nothing but cry because she feels used. and so she writes about it on facebook and stuff & yet everyone hurts her feelings.

bleh .... today has been so bleh #

THE SOLUTION -

listen to them slowjams#

2009-2010

im currently in the philippines. i got nothing else todo as my parents went to have some "couple time" so im stuck at home with my brothers. i might aswell blog, LOL my little brother is looking at him self in the mirror ,while singing man in the mirror. he's so hilarious. ANYWAYS 09 has been the most fullfilling year ive done so many things made new friends + lost some old friends + fallen in love + fallen out of love + been out without an adults supervision + ive done so much that ive lost track of what ive done during o9. but now that 010 is here i gotta grow up. ive cried like to0 many times during 09, im soooooo sensitive so i cry very easily but as they song goes "big girls dont cry" which is true, but we do need to let it out sometimes. i hate it how people say "new year, new me" it makes me laugh cos they dont change, they stay the same old dumb self.

but yeah my

new years resolutions-

-save money

-study more

-become MORE independant

buhbyeee

So im gonna have to stop blogging for about 4 weeks? bcos im going on holiday =D im soo gonna come back fat & tanned but WOOH

thats where im going ^^ [:

(:

I SEEM TO LIKE MY MIDDLE FINGER XD

the cold

I woke up this morning thinking it was a sunny warm day. so i just put on at-shirt and cardigan to go church. As soon as i stepped outside felt a frosty breeze comming to my face like WTF? so i went to church cold & miserable it wasnt nice.BUT the upside is that my mum bought apple pie

it was about time i had apple pie bcos ive been craving it for months. Oh and chocolate cake YUM im making you hungry init. ha look at this then..

IT LOOKS SO NICE!

Oh and i had some asian time cos my mum bought the " fake" twilight . You know it " 2 dvds £10" [x but yeah. i wass SCREAMING my lungs out when i saww taylor going topless. OH YESS hesss OH SOO PRETTY? you agree dont chuu? [:

Just things